Trying to eat more consciously - have rekindled my love affair with Fiber One bars and try to remind myself at each meal that Im fueling my body to run. Yes, I should still enjoy the food, but I didn't want to pump myself full of sodium today so I didnt get a soup bowl at Wagamama and opted for a chili shrimp dish over noodles instead. Got some veggies, got some protein (enhanced by the cup of edamame pods - YUM) and enjoyed the noodles and spice quite a bit. And didnt even end up eating all of it b/c I was quite satisfied with just half. All in all, an excellent lunch.
Now to scheme up a good dinner....
Am now sitting at work in a cute little skirt, enjoying a big breakfast of hot vanilla cereal and a large banana - should keep me going for quite a while!!
Making mental note to drink more water this afternoon. Finally feeling more relaxed since my meeting with my boss went well - just hope I can do everything I've promised to do in the next 12 months! In celebration of being done with the meeting, wanting salt, and continuing to appreciate my new-found skill in making pizza, I am currently enjoying two more slices of my veggie pizza from last night!
Have also been thoroughly enjoying some organic Rainier cherries - on sale for the same price as regular reds! Thought I fear I may have indulged a bit too much....time for a walk!!
Must have nourishment! It's 11:3oam and my stomach is growling. Again, in the interest of listening to my body, I've decided to feed it and opted for my latest obsession: PB&J, but upgraded with Jean Louis Provence Kitchen Lavender Jelly. Pure decadence! I'm also having a coffee to pep me up a little bit and added some half & half to keep me full a little longer:
And of course, time for a little afternoon indulgence:
And apparently since the ice cream only holds me over for about 3 hours, repeat open-faced PB&J, but no coffee this time:
I think a cup of green tea might hold me over until I head home now. Have opted for about 1/2 of a large Granny Smith apple and may now have my tea....
Went to WF after work and picked up some Ranier cherries and pizza fixings. Decided that I wanted some chocolate so got a bag at CVS as well. Got home, was very glad to see S and made a big veggie pizza:
I felt pretty satisfied after the first slice but knew I'd be hungry again soon if I didn't have the second so I enjoyed it. Had another handful or two of cherries and then some Hershey's Dark Miniatures. I think I had 5, which I'm kind of OK with, they were tasty!
Time for a good night's sleep and to wake up as a 27 year old!!!
(Speaking of schedules, when did I become so dependent on a routine? I find an undeniable link between breaks in my routine and my lapses in judgement with food. Even if it's something small, like S going to NY, which doesn't cause me much stress, I think, it threw off my morning a little and as soon as I got out of bed, I was feeling the pull of the kitchen. I don't get it!)
(Side note 2: I had a moment in the elevator last night on my way home from a run with Al that I don't want to forget. It seems like a lot of my friends are in a bad way right now, KM, AR, KW, etc. And I wish I could bear the weight of their problems for them for a while. But I also realized, just before I walked into my apartment and unloaded all of their problems on S, that my priority is him now. For one of the first times ever, I walked in, said 'hello', gave him a kiss and asked how he was doing, rather than talking about everyone else's issues. I did talk to him later in the night about AR, but the fact is that he can't really do anything so no reason to burden him with it.)
Looking forward to Pilates tonight, hoping to enjoy some sushi afterwards and watching some of the All Star game (maybe I'll see S on TV) while I do some knitting. I know, crazy life I lead!!
I spoke to my friend S on Monday about vegetarianism and I've decided to give it a shot for the next 30 days. In addition to being vegetarian, I've also committed to giving up most processed foods - no processed crap sugars, no junk, etc. Also, no alcohol, except for the night of the 12th, when we are going to a friend's house for a dinner party and she has planned a lovely menu, including Prosecco, bless her heart. I'm hoping that the natural cleansing of my body will help turn my mood around and give me the pep that usually resides in my step.
So far (been vegetarian since the 1st) I've noticed that I have to stop and think much more about the foods I eat. When I went to Whole Foods today, I instantly started thinking about salmon sushi and crab cakes. I didn't for a second think about red meat or chicken though. I wonder what that means. I've also noticed that I'm not as thirsty today (probably since I didn't work out).
I'm also working on just accepting the feeling of hunger. I've provided myself with enough food each day to sustain my body. But, for now, I'm going to stop obsessing over my feelings of hunger because I'm beginning to think my body has learned that all it has to do is tell my head that I'm hungry and then I'll get to eat more.
I'm really hoping my BBQ tempeh dinner tonight goes over well, and I'd love to have energy tomorrow to go for a short run before going into work early (9-5 tomorrow so I can volunteer at the yoga studio). We shall see....
Side note, contacted an animal shelter today and am very excited about the prospect of getting a dog. Got a weird feeling about the shelter though b/c it's based in Indiana and they would transport the puppy to us, but we wouldn't get to meet it first. I'd really hoped to meet the puppy we get before deciding on it. I hope P puts us in touch with the MA branch so we can actually meet some dogs in the coming weeks. More to come on that later.